Not So Funny Really

People constantly joke about being bipolar. I don’t like it. If they really suffered from it, they would see that it is not a joke. It is not funny at all.

I can’t decide what is worse, the manic episodes or the deep dark depression that I feel after it.

Friday-Sunday was an insane, over the top, incredibly wild time. I was overly manic. I couldn’t even sleep.  My body was exhausted but I just wanted to keep going. The high I felt was amazing. My mind just does that. Inside I knew that this was bad. I had not had an episode like that in a long time. Everything just went downhill after Sunday. Today the depression that I feel is like no other. I just want to crawl away and just disappear. The sorrow I feel is unbearable. I don’t like this at all. I am tired. I could just sleep an entire 24 hours. I just don’t want to move.

 

Why would anyone WANT to be bipolar? Why would anyone joke about such a serious thing? I don’t understand it.

 

 

 

I wish this was over. I wish this was done. I wish I didn’t have this.

 

 

 

 

4 thoughts on “Not So Funny Really

  1. Samantha Daniels says:

    I hate that people joke about mental disorders or that people just think its bs. The struggle is real. I wouldn’t wish any sort of mental disorder on anyone. i love you boobear. you’re my number one. i love you<3

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    • designlessthts says:

      I love you too! I can’t wait until you come over tomorrow. I need my friend :( I can’t stand this!

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  2. Nesheaholic says:

    I’m sorry you have to deal with that. When people don’t really KNOW what they are saying, they can definitely offend.

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