So I was looking back at a couple of private entries from when I first found out I was pregnant with Maxine and got all teary-eyed! I was in a dark place before I found out that I was pregnant with her. Something told me to take that test though. I am so glad I did. It was just what I needed. I’m ready to share these two entries!
A reason to live||February 10, 2013
Just when I though it was no longer worth it.
Just when I though I didn’t matter.
Just when I was giving up.
Dear M of the future,
I will meet you in hopefully 8 months.
Dear Maxine Elisabeth or Vincent,
I already love you.
I really hope I don’t lose you.
Please don’t go away
Please…keep giving me this reason to live.
I can’t believe it.
I AM PREGNANT.
Grandma and Grandpa Brown || February 12, 2013
Today I told mom and dad that they are going to be grandparents!!
I got them a valentine’s card that was for grandma and grandpa and added in a “future” and “soon-to-be” in front of the grandparents on the card.
They were shocked and said, “what? I don’t understand. What are you trying to say?” then dad said, “wait, are you pregnant!?”
I told them yes and they were very congratulatory. I think they took it very very well. I am very happy that they know now!
They seemed very happy.
Maxine changed my life SO MUCH. I am so thankful and elated that she is in my life now. She is the greatest gift that my husband and I have ever received and I love watching how fast she is growing. Three months have already flown by. Time, can you slow down now?!