This year, I will be focusing on me. Typically when I do the 52 project, I focus on everything but me. It’s usually my children or babywearing or even random things that caught my eye. It’s all about me now!
Recently I realized that I have not been putting myself first as often as I should. I was so focused on making sure that others were taken care of that I severely neglected myself. Once I started working, I realized that people started to resent me because I was too busy to check in with them as often as I had been before. It really made me sit back and reflect on these friendships. Was I receiving any support when it came to my mental health and life problems or was I just allowing myself to become their mental dumping ground? Were they even sharing my joy when I told them good news? NOPE. Did they even get that I was trying to put myself first? NOPE. Looking back, I should have noticed this but I know that when you’re a person like me who gives and gives, there usually isn’t anyone there to even notice that things are different with you until you go into a complete meltdown.
In 2018, I will be focusing on wellness. I will say no to things that I don’t want to do. I will do things that make me happy. I will do all the things I love to do. I will take care of ME. I will be selfish. I will make sure that I am putting myself first. I will fight for others less. I will fight for myself more.
I will just be me.
I have other goals for the year as well that all focus around wellness and I can’t wait to share those things with you as the year goes on. Today is the end of the first day of 2018 and if today is any indication of how the year will be for me, I think it’s gonna be pretty damn great.